For me, 2018 was the year of illumination. If you add 2+0+1+8 you get the master number 11, which in numerology means illumination or revelation. It wasn't anything I was expecting!
Life is hard sometimes because it's impossible to know what's going to happen next. You can make detailed plans but those plans are linear -- step one do this, step two do that, etc. The problem is that life is non-linear. In life there are too many people, too many situations, too many possible variables to keep track of everything. People you don't even know come out of the woodwork and enter your problem space! Life is too complicated to control everything, even though I want to. I won't elaborate on this because we've all experienced it. So how do you cope?
A lot of people just work harder. When Jay Leno was breaking into the comedy business he wanted to be famous, but it wasn’t happening even though he was working 12 hours a day. His solution? Work 16 hours a day. Well, it got him the host of the Tonight show, so maybe working harder is the solution for everyone. But many of us work our butts off and we don't see success like Jay Leno did. Or success at all.
My solution has always been to think my way through and work hard. However, as the Shift gets more and more powerful, that isn't working for me anymore.
What is the Shift? It's a change in human consciousness that is sweeping the planet. Even the dullest person can see that change is sweeping the country. People are going bananas, shooting up nightclubs, schools, synagogues, and public gatherings. The polarity in politics has never been more pronounced. Haters abound on both sides of the political spectrum. No one knows where the economy is going. No one knows where ANYTHING is going. That which has been predictable is now unpredictable. The rapid pace of change is literally unbalancing people. Uncertainty is the most prevalent theme.
What is causing this? The only explanation that makes sense to me is an esoteric one. You can't model what's happening; there are too many variables and they are changing too rapidly. There seems to be no structure to the changes that are occurring.
The primary esoteric cycle on this planet is the precession of the equinoxes, a 25,772-year wobble of the planet about its axis. The ancients knew it. In the Mayan calendar it is approximately 5 sequences of 13 Baktuns, each sequence being approximately 5,128 years. The planet's wobble is also the subject of prophecy in many cultures. The Mayan Long Count ended on (approximately) December 21, 2012, which was the end of a 26-millennia-long precession cycle.
What happens after that? The Shift. The Shift is a long process in which human consciousness transcends the duality and attains a higher state of awareness. I used to think that this could happen at the speed of thought -- overnight. But that was a pipe dream.
It's going to take a while. If current events are any indication, we have a lot of crap to work through. Darkness has been the order of the day for millennia. To see this take a cursory glance at the history books! At the end of these precession cycles there is a great reckoning. A civilization must deal with its accumulated karma during the previous cycle! Fortunately we made it past the end of the precession cycle without destroying ourselves and the planet in a nuclear war. But there is a lot of karmic housecleaning to do before we can march off into a golden age.
When consciousness goes from dark to light there is hope, excitement, and a feeling that things are going to be a lot better. And there is also the dark baggage attached to that. The spiritual system on this planet validates responsibility. That's what karma is all about. We don't get to be slackers. A magic wand isn’t waved and everything is perfect, that is an adolescent idea. Everything we are working through is because, in our past lives, we did a lot of dark things. All of it is stored in our Akash, and within the grids of subtle energy that are part of the earth's esoteric system.
Why? Because it’s a spiritual accounting system; a sort of esoteric ledger that validates responsible action. We don’t get away with anything because the system tallies everything we do. If we killed or betrayed someone in a past life, that action is recorded. Karmic energy is created and it is entered into the ledger of the soul who incarnated on the planet. When that soul comes back he or she has to pick up the karma that was created in the past life and work through it.
How did this esoteric system get established? Through the Uplift, or the Seeding.
My understand is that 200,000 years ago, humanity were hominids. For some reason this planet was chosen as the site of a great test of energy. The gift of dark and light -- the precursor to evolutionary growth -- was given to humanity. This is recorded metaphorically in scripture as the Garden of Eden and the Tree of Knowledge.
Our DNA was enhanced. Every life form on this planet has 24 chromosomes, but humanity has 23. The Seeding, or the Uplift, elevated human DNA from hominid to human being. Logically, this could not be accomplished by the low consciousness which existed on the planet at that time. It must have come from a Graduate planet with an advanced race of beings. So our heritage is from the stars.
David Brin, the SF writer, has this right in his Uplift series of books. Graduate, or high consciousness civilizations, help out their younger brothers and sisters by enhancing their DNA and giving them a shot at higher consciousness. What happens after that is entirely the free choice of the inhabitants of the Uplift.
In this conception, there is a galaxy out there filled with life, and we are a part of it. We are not alone in the universe, which is an absurd and adolescent concept that comes with low consciousness.
Whichever Graduate race Uplifted us – your guess is as good as mine – transformed the 24th chromosome with a multidimensional component through an enhancement of human DNA. The planet was also seeded with grids of subtle energy that would record everything that occurred during the Great Experiment.
Why do this? Again, to create a spiritual system that validates responsibility. Gaia is a participant in this system. The planet records the decisions and actions of humanity and cooperates with human consciousness. Gaia reflects back to humanity, via the law of attraction, the state of humanity's collective consciousness. It's a good system. According to Marshall Vian Summers, there are a few Graduate planets in the galaxy; those who have attained a very high consciousness through spiritual evolution. But the rest of the galaxy, according to Summers, is like earth except with advanced galactic technology (a la Star Wars). Perhaps this seeding of planets is an attempt to raise consciousness in the galaxy.
A civilization that stays mired in primitive materialism will never be able to reach the multidimensional spiritual gateway to higher consciousness. The seeded civilization has to recognize that there is something beyond the John and Mary of life ("if I can't see it it's not real"), even though this spiritual gateway is completely invisible and un-provable. That’s what Old Souls have been doing on the planet for a long time.
The DNA enhancement of humanity was the responsibility of the Seeders. Whatever galactic technology they used is beyond our understanding. But the 24th chromosome would have a multidimensional component. It would be the potential connection between a race of hominids with no knowledge of esoterics, and the Great Central Source, the creator of all. It is what is meant by the phrase "God inside."
Clearly, during this test, humanity chose the dark side. If you have any self awareness at all – by that I mean a knowledge of the Light within you – you have experienced pushback from the dark. You probably got criticized, taunted, even physically confronted if you expressed your views about spirituality. You were probably perceived as “different.” Many of us learned to shut up and not push too hard.
Well, despite all that we made it past the extinction events, we made it past the December 21, 2012 marker. So what’s next? The Shift to higher consciousness. We’re in it now! To understand this, just look around. Try to talk politics to someone. Whew! Opinions have hardened. The false dichotomy is Liberal vs Conservative, Left vs Right. That’s what the mainstream media promotes. The true dichotomy is between love and hate, tolerance and intolerance. There is hate and love on both sides. We have to choose in a way we never thought.
So – the Shift is the great battle at the end of the world between hate and love. More and more people are discovering the Light within them, but those who have many lifetimes on earth are also discovering the darkness that accompanies it. We are now in the window between the second precession cycle and the beginning of the third. It all began in Lemuria over 50,000 years ago (before that homo sapiens was just evolving from hominid to human being). After the fall of Lemuria many other civilizations rose and fell during the second precession cycle. Most of these will never be discovered. Our present civilization began about 18,000 years ago after the last ice age. We made it. We are now in a short 36-year (or thereabouts) period after the second precession cycle. Whatever humanity decides collectively will set the stage for the next 25,772-year cycle.
So the time we are in is a really big deal folks.
The Shift is causing people to choose between love and tolerance over hatred and intolerance. The Shift is being framed, falsely, by the media as a Trump-Clinton dichotomy, or a Democrat-Republican conflict.
Head vs Heart, Intellect vs Intuition
As the Shift proceeds it is creating a chaotic situation where the parameters of the old system recede and new potentials arise. Many people don’t recognize this, they are simply living their lives and not questioning anything. But old souls are having a harder time of it. If you are reading this you are almost certainly an old soul.
In quantum physics a system can be described as a superposition of potential states, any of which could manifest. When a system evolves it settles into a new set of parameters, which then manifest a different physical nature or structure. The beginning of a system shift always involves a period of chaos, in which many of the superposed states are presented for inspection. That’s what’s happening now. Current events are chaotic, if you haven’t noticed!
For me personally, I used to get by being cerebral and working hard, but this is not working for me anymore. In fact, my life right now is at a complete standstill. A lot of blackness has descended on me during the last few months. After a lot of meditation I figured out that this blackness wasn’t some outside force – it was my own Akash trying to clear. The longer you have been on the planet, the more karma you have to clear. The time it takes to clear is time dependent. How many lifetimes have you had? What shit have you been involved in? That’s what determines the strength and duration of your clearing.
I have no idea how long this is going to take for me but at least now I have an understanding of why and how. I told you I was cerebral and for me it’s important to understand why stuff happens. God understands everything and all of us carry a little piece of God within us. The desire for understanding is a divine impulse! You may not feel this way and if not, the Shift is probably going to be easier for you.
In my meditation last night I discovered the difference between intuition and the intellect.
Human beings exist in a body-mind-spirit framework. The brain, the mind, the intellect and the ego are all linear systems. You have a problem, you analyze the problem, you take step by step action to solve the problem. The idea that intuition could be involved in solving life problems doesn’t really occur to the intellect, or to any linear system, because it is illogical. “I’m going to use intuition to solve my problem,” you say to the brain. The brain responds, “WTF are you talking about? Identify the problem and use logic to solve it. Make a plan.” To a linear system, a non-linear solution is not comprehensible.
As far as the body goes, the body is just focused on its needs and desires. The body can get in the way of intuitive understanding if the person is focused primarily on the body’s needs and desires. That's where a lot of people are at right now. Just watch TV and media for a little while!
The heart understands intuition and love because it is the seat of intuition and love. The heart is the key to spiritual understanding. In my clearing sessions I place my attention in the heart chakra and I don’t attempt to analyze how or why I am feeling the way I am. Logically, there is no reason whatsoever for me to feel bad about anything. I have a great life! But if that is so, then why do I feel so crummy? The explanation is non-linear and esoteric. It doesn’t involve psychology or the standard self-help formulas. The clearing of the Akash goes way, way beyond these simplistic explanations that only involve the current life, and it applies primarily to old souls.
The heart is the seat of intuition and non-linearity. So whenever the darkness comes in I power up the heart chakra and send pulses of love to the rest of the body, especially the head. (I've noticed something interesting: I always feel the darkness center around the head.) Everything seems to calm down. When I realized this it was in a flash of understanding; a kind of illumination. “Hey brain, hey mind, you don’t have the tools or the understanding to deal with what is happening. Stand down.” That doesn’t go over well with the part of me – the linear part – which thinks it’s really stupid and that it will never work.
I realized I had become cerebral because of my upbringing. I was raised Catholic. My father was very devout. When I looked at the images of the saints and other holy figures, they always had halos. Look at these representative pictures:
St. Nicholas, St. Mary, Christ
The halos of these holy figures surround the head. So, the head must be the most important bit if you want to advance spiritually, right? After all, the head contains the pineal gland, the organ that transmits the esoteric, sacred energies into the body.
It’s things like this that slip inside your box of beliefs. Your parents tell you something, you read something in a college textbook or in a sacred text, you hear something from a respected scientist or a spiritual leader or a mentor. You don’t think about it, but it becomes part of your belief system. Then you begin operating on those assumptions.
The idea that “spiritual advancement comes from the head” thus entered my box of beliefs. But I have discovered that those halos should really be centered in the heart area, and encompass the entire body not just the head. The head – the mind, the intellect – is linear, and there is a place for that. We use the brain and the mind to negotiate through daily life. We need it. But now my life is changing in ways I never thought it would because of the Shift. I need something more.
Intuition is Non-linear
What I have been doing for the past several months while all of this was going on, is trying to guide my life only by intuition. For my cerebral, linear personality this has caused a ton of worry and anxiety. “But how are you going to make money? What are you going to do? We need a plan!!!”
I haven’t got a plan. But my old life is now going away, it's a weird feeling. The old linear ways of thinking and planning just feel wrong. The answer to these questions of life is, for me right now, “I don’t know. It will all work out. I’m trusting my intuition.”
“That’s not good enough,” the mind says. “What are you, a space cadet? Get your act together fool!”
I suppose you could call this a "mid-life crisis." But it's not. I'm 67 years old now, my mid-life crises are all behind me. Been there, done that. No, this is something much more profound. It's part of the year of illumination for me. Apparently I'm headed off on another life path, but right now I haven't a clue what it is!
Apparently the new life path has to do with clearing my Akash. The exciting thing is that during this clearing of darkness, whenever I follow my intuition I get excited and a feeling of certainty happens as long as I am doing action cycles associated with my intuitive guidance. It makes no sense logically. But gradually, over the months, I am learning to trust my intuition.
I am a writer. I was sitting at my desk last August when I became inspired to do some more research on the geometry/math textbook I wrote some years ago. “Write up a research paper about the truncated icosahedron (soccer ball) and add it to your book,” my intuition told me.
“Where did this come from?” my brain asks. “Why?”
“Just do it,” my intuition says.
So I begin to work every day on analyzing this polyhedron (a polyhedron is a geometric solid like the cube. These geometric designs are found in nature and in mathematics and in sacred geometry). About two weeks later I get a call from a guy who has read my book. He says, “I am a curriculum developer. I have some high level contacts at several universities. I want to create a college course using your book.”
Well, you could have knocked me down with a feather. Where did this guy come from? I wondered. I look him up and remember he communicated with me a few years ago about the book. So that’s coincidence, right? My intellect says, in its linear fashion, “You got lucky. You can’t run your life like this.”
Two weeks later I finish the new paper and add it to the book. My intuition then says, “Rewrite some of the chapters for greater clarity.” I start on that and the curriculum developer calls me again, saying he is developing a plan to get the book in a college course. I’m thinking, “Wow, that’s another coincidence.” We have another conversation and start talking about what we are going to do.
Six weeks later I get another intuitive flash. “Scalar Vector Graphics. Create your book using SVG images so they look really good and can be studied easier by students.” Scalar vector graphics are mathematical objects, not pixels. So you can make SVG images as large as you want with no loss of resolution. SVG graphics look sharp and clear no matter how big they get. In my book this is important because I am doing a detailed analysis of these polyhedra. I have a lot of diagrams that show the guts of these polyhedra. I need sharp, clear images so people can understand how these things are built.
It takes me another month to do that because I have to learn how to do it, and there are 170 images in the book. Then my intuition says, “Make all of the sections of your book, and the images, linkable.” That takes me another two weeks. It is now the middle of December and I have been working on this every day for 8 to 10 hours since the middle of August.
Meanwhile I am not working, I have no money coming in, and my brain is freaking out. “WTF are you doing!!! Get off your butt and find some work!”
My intuition tells me to relax. “Complete your book, don’t do anything until the end of December. “ So now it’s almost the end of December. My life is still up in the air. “How is this going to turn out?” my linear brain says. My intuition says, “Stop worrying. After you finish this geometry book finish up your latest novel.” Last year (2017) I started writing a novel called The Old Soul. But I dropped it in 2018 because I couldn't figure out how to end it. So now I'm working on that and it's the end of December. Bills are coming in and the brain is getting worried. My intuition tells me to relax.
I’m realizing that there IS a multidimensional component to life. I'm experiencing this in my meditations and in my life now. It’s not logical, it’s not understandable to the brain. It’s the law of attraction, which I wrote about in my book The Vibrational Universe. The law of attraction is a wonderful, helpful concept that I have been using for a long time. But now I’m finding that my old life, for some reason, is over. Probably because of the meditations and visualizations I have been doing over the past year, during this year of illumination. Some of these meditations have been very powerful. Now my life is changing in unexpected ways. Now I have to trust that the things I have been asking for will come. I am ready to grab any opportunity. But it’s a little scary not knowing how or when things will turn around. The process, I am beginning to realize, is non-linear. So by definition I can’t figure it out with my intellect. I have a feeling that artists and creative people live their lives like this, but I am not used to it.
So I say to myself, “I don’t know where I’m going or how it will turn out, but I trust that the universe is benevolent and that my intuition will guide me to the right place.”
Whew! That really doesn’t appeal to my linear personality at all. But I’m learning. It really is a different way to live.
That's my report for this month.
Happy New Year!
Current Events Update
Wow – the bullshit from the media is reaching epic proportions. Let’s take a step back and figure out what is really happening. In the first place, the reason for the “Wall” nonsense at the end of December 2018 has little to do with the current government shutdown. Trump can build it, and is building it, from monies already appropriated. There is a parallel negotiation going on between the Republicans and the Democrats and it involves Inspector General Horowitz and his assistant John Huber, who have 470 trained DOJ investigators looking into corruption. The Democrats tell Trump to shove it by refusing to appropriate money for his Wall. Trump counters by instituting a long government shutdown, thus making the Democrats' victory in the House hollow as long as the govt is shutdown. But not to worry folks! Congress already passed a law that guarantees the salaries of lawmakers during the shutdown, even though Federal workers and their own staffers don't get paid! How's that for democracy! (Federal workers will get paid for the time the govt is shutdown anyway. They just don't get the money until the government shutdown is over). There are other factors involved as well, too complicated to discuss here. There are deeper forces at work than the debate over a stupid wall.
In 2019 there is probably going to be a financial reset for the entire planet. The current financial system hasn’t been working for a long time. This is going to cause turmoil in the markets, it’s already begun in the anticipation of this. The market has been jumping wildly because investors get spooked by every announcement from the Fed, or an event that gets blown out of proportion by the media, or a Trump tweet. According to Benjamin Fulford (who is sometimes way off base but gets it right a lot of the time) a decision has been made at the highest levels of world power to rebuild the temple in Jerusalem and turn that city into an international free zone. This is why, along with the financial reset, 2019 is likely to be a year of great change. The Jerusalem free zone will (hopefully) be the precursor for a permanent solution to the intractable Middle East problem. But there will probably be a lot of insanity during that process as unbalanced people on both sides overreact!
Meanwhile the do-nothings in Congress will be trying to impeach Trump (in the Democratic House) or investigating Democratic corruption (in the Republican Senate). The fact is that there are thousands of sealed proceedings sitting at the Department of Justice right now (see pacer.gov for a state-by-state list). Inspector General Horowitz and his assistant John Huber have been compiling indictments against criminals all over the country, including politicians from both parties. (The IG has over 470 trained investigators, in comparison to Special Counsel Robert Mueller’s pathetic 15. The Mueller report will be an afterthought, but it will be blown (as usual) out of proportion to its real significance by the media.) Why do you think so many politicians have resigned or have decided not to run again during 2018? Almost all of the gerrymandered Congressional districts in the US are shoo-ins for incumbents. The reason these people are resigning or not running again is that most of them are crooks, and Horowitz and Huber have the goods on them. In exchange for their cooperation, they are being allowed to walk quietly off into the sunset. I posted a list of these politicians in one of December’s posts. There will probably be more in 2019.
2019 will also see many of these sealed indictments go public. It will be interesting to see who is named and what is revealed.
Hating on Trump or the Clintons, or Democrats or Republicans, will not get us where we want to go. Hate will drag us down. I have turned off the news. I read a few sites I trust, very briefly. True journalism is dead because 99% of the media (on both sides) have an agenda. For example, here are two headlines from the Washington Post.
Why is Trump pulling troops out of Syria? Why is he going to pull our military out of Afghanistan? Why did he negotiate peace with Kim Jong-Un and President Xi of China so we can get our troops out of the Korean Peninsula? Because the people who want them there, fighting and creating tension, are the same people whose agenda is endless war and the protection of their worldwide corporate interests. Just as the conservative Nixon was the only guy who could make overtures to Red China back in 1972, so too it is the military-friendly Trump who has the cred to bring our troops home.
It's about time!!!! Personally I'm all in favor. The US shouldn't be the world's policeman for a corporate fascist state run by elites that look out only for their own interests. Those who truly want peace will support Trump's withdrawal of U.S. troops. Those who don't will bullshit about "maintaining alliances" and "terrorist threats." That's old energy talk for, "We want the world to stay the same so we can continue to exercise our influence." You can tell who's for peace and who isn't by reading and listening. The Post, for example, is owned by Jeff "CIA" Bezos. The CIA is a wonderful organization known across the planet for its peaceful pursuits and its integrity!
Besides, the US has been bankrupt for many years. We can't afford troops all over the world. I don't understand anyone's objection to this. The Post is totally wrong about this, IMO.
My advice: Turn off the “news” and meditate instead. Find the God within. Be nice to yourself, your family, your neighbors, and your co-workers.
Let’s make 2019 a year of light!